Thank you for visiting my blog. I wanted to create it so that all the people close to me can check in to see what happening in my treatment, and how I'm doing. This doesn't mean that I don't want to hear from you. Please feel free to call, email, text any time. But I apologize if I don't always get back to you. This new cancer journey of mine is a full time job, and I'm doing the best that I can. Please know that your thoughts and prayers mean so much to me...keep them coming! Thank you for all your help and support too...it takes a community, and you have all given us that.
With love and gratitude,
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
In a slump - off to Germany
I've been in a bit of a fog for the last week. My last 2 infusions of chemo and my bone drug have each caused intense pain, fatigue, and feeling bad overall. The last few months have certainly been difficult, and caused a shift in mood. This in turn causes a general downward spiral of sadness and lost motivation. But it's temporary and I'll pick myself up again and move forward! So what's next? 1) We've cancelled my next chemo...this may be the end of Vinorelbine. 2) I still need to have a brain MRI to see the results of my last SRS treatment. But my latest CT scan showed everything else is stable. 3) All my research of possible treatments has led me to Germany. I'm not ready to go for another round of heavy chemo. So I'm planning to make a trip there in a few weeks. They will use hyperthermia and other alternative therapies in conjunction with low dose chemo. I think the time is right, and if I don't try it, I will regret it. I hate to leave the kids for 3 weeks, but they will be surrounded by family and friends, to help out while I'm away. I will be accompanied by my friend, my Mom, Mark, and my friend that lives in Germany. Between them, I'll have someone with me for the whole time. I'm not looking forward to it, but I'm hopeful that it will make a difference in my life. I'll be there November 18 - December 9, and will try to keep you updated by blogging my experience. When I get home, we'll redo my scans and re-evaluate what's next. Prayers and positive light please!